Also I think the thing that people dont seem to get in my painterly vs. lined illustration style debate is that I have experimented. I have tried both, I have worked with both. If you look a my work it plays to one side of the other very often and is always a hybrid on a varying scale. The issue is not in feeling out which I like better, and it isn’t about doing both. I am a highly anxious, OCPD leaning perfectionist, and the good old “just keep experimenting” doesn’t normally work for me. Everything I do is calculated, and throwing caution to the wind isn’t something I can just do in my work.
My indecision will be solved or it won’t be, there is not real way to navigate it other than personal reflection that will eventually lead to final action.